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  PUBLISHER’S NOTE: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data Freedman, Paula J.

  My basmati bat mitzvah / Paula J. Freedman.

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  Summary: Tara Feinstein, proud of both her East Indian and Jewish heritage, ponders what it means to have a bat mitzvah and deals with her own questions about her faith.

  ISBN 978-1-4197-0806-0 (alk. paper)

  ISBN 978-1-6131-2523-6 (ebook)

  [1. Bat mitzvah—Fiction. 2. Judaism—Fiction.

  3. Jews—United States—Fiction.

  4. East Indian Americans—Fiction.] I. Title.

  PZ7.F87286My 2013

  [Fic]—dc23

  2013005791

  Text copyright © 2013 Paula J. Freedman

  Book design by Sara Corbett

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  CONTENTS

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  GLOSSARY

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  hen Ben-o came over on Saturday for movie night, my dad answered the door wearing gray silk pajama bottoms and his Math Teachers Play by the Numbers T-shirt, an unlit pipe clenched between his teeth.

  “Ben-o, old chap!” he cried heartily. “How are you, dear boy?”

  Daddy was practicing his Jay Gatsby routine—so embarrassing. His eleventh-graders were reading The Great Gatsby in their English class, so he planned to go to school on Monday in character—even though he teaches math, not English. I hoped it wouldn’t turn into a phase, like last year, which was much worse—steampunk. At least he doesn’t go around wearing a leather helmet and aviator goggles anymore.

  “Good, Mr. Feinstein.”

  “Joshua, Ben-o, pal,” Daddy said, slapping him on the back. “Call me Joshua.”

  I wished he wouldn’t call him Ben-o. It sounded stupid when he said it. Ben-o started being called Ben-o because of the other Ben—Ben D.—who moved away in fourth grade. But Daddy didn’t even know that.

  Ben O’Connell is like my best friend in the whole world, besides Rebecca. He lives three floors down, so we practically grew up together. He didn’t even put on shoes to come upstairs.

  I stood across the room, next to Mum, watching with embarrassment. Daddy teaches trigonometry and calculus. He is, by definition, not cool, but he tries to compensate by getting into whatever “all the kids” are into. Which is double uncool, but his students love him. Mum, on the other hand, doesn’t even try to be cool. It’s one of her more endearing qualities.

  “Tara,” she said, “go and rescue Benjamin from your father.” She gave me a not-so-subtle push forward, sending me not-so-gracefully bounding across the room. “Come along, Joshua,” she added.

  “Hey,” I said when they left.

  “Hey,” Ben-o said.

  I looked him up and down, puzzled. “Why are you dressed like that?”

  He was wearing a red polo shirt, tucked into a pair of jeans with no obvious holes in them. Something was up with his hair, too, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it.

  His face flushed all the way up to his ears.

  “Like what?” he asked, trying to sound casual.

  “Like—since when do you tuck in?”

  Ben-o surveyed himself in surprise, as if his shirt had tucked itself in when he wasn’t looking. He shrugged.

  “Never mind,” I said. “You look nice, is all.”

  “Um, thanks,” he mumbled.

  We went to the kitchen then and made two bags of microwave popcorn. I covered mine with chaat masala, an addictive mix of Indian dry spices made especially for snacks, but Ben-o just had salt on his, because masala powder makes him cough.

  No kidding, India has the best salty snacks in the world. Nothing we have in the West compares, not potato chips or pretzels or even nachos. I’ve never understood why Americans are so crazy for Mexican food but not Indian. The secret Indian snack-food ingredient is mango powder, which is Hindi for “that which makes everything taste delicious.” Between that and the black sea salt, once you start eating it, you can’t stop.

  I get my snacketite from Nanaji—my Indian grandfather. His favorites included chana jor garam, whole chickpeas mashed flat, fried, and seasoned with chaat masala. Golgappas, crisp pastry globes filled with a spicy liquid that you had to pop in your mouth whole. Crunchy bhel puri. Steaming samosas. Savory aloo tikki patties. Then there were the sweets.

  “Once you have tasted proper kulfi,” Nanaji used to say, dreamily, “you will forget your ice cream.”

  Ben-o had brought over his whole binder of horrormovie DVDs. We agreed on Bloody Fools, a goofy vampire story where everyone talks in fake British accents.

  He slouched down next to me on the couch, fiddling with the remote. I reached over and touched his hair. When we were little, he used to let me braid it or gather it up into a ponytail and then spring it free. I loved the way his hair, if you stretched it, was long and silky, and then you let go and it sproinged back into place. You wouldn’t have guessed how long it really was unless we went swimming at the Y and he was just coming out of a dive off the high board and it was all plastered back and reaching past his shoulders. One shake and the curls would bounce back into place.

  Today it felt different. Coarse. Not curly.

  “Why’s it all fluffy?”

  “That happens when I comb it.”

  “You can’t comb curly hair! Even I know that,” I said. “You have to just let it go natural. Or cut it all off.” Boys can be so clueless.

  Whoosh. I saw his right ear and cheek go red again.

  I wondered what was up with him lately. Combing his hair, tucking in shirts—the week before, he’d brought over flowers for Mum, from his mom’s rooftop garden.

  The movie started, and we both shrieked in pretend-terror when the first vampire, Joffrey, jumped out from behind the fake boulder—as if we hadn’t seen it like a hundred times. We clutched hands, laughing and shivering.

  But then D
addy came in with some tall iced teas, and Ben-o dropped my hand and scooted to the other side of the couch. Daddy put the tray down on the ottoman and sat in the adjacent armchair.

  “I say, old sports. Whatcha watching?”

  “Bloody Fools,” Ben-o mumbled, taking an iced tea from the tray.

  “Beg pardon?”

  “That’s the name of the movie,” I said.

  “I hope it’s not rated R,” Daddy said. “Let me see the box.”

  “Daddy! We’ve seen this movie like a hundred times.”

  “We have?”

  “Not you—me and Ben-o.”

  He watched with us for like ten minutes, totally ruining the mood, especially because he kept laughing at how dumb the movie was. Which was true, but that was sort of the point. When Daddy wasn’t looking, Ben-o did a fake stretch and draped his arm over the back of the couch, around my shoulders. Which was totally weird, especially with my dad sitting there, alternately chomping on an unlit pipe and loud-slurping an iced tea. I started to giggle. If Ben-o’s move was a joke, I didn’t quite get it, but I laughed as if I did. I felt his arm stiffen, but he didn’t move it.

  Mum poked her head around the corner. “Joshua,” she said, motioning with her eyebrows that he should join her in the other room, but Daddy remained oblivious.

  “What?” he said.

  “Leave. The kids. Alone.”

  “Oh, right,” he said, standing up. Then he added, without even looking, “Both hands where I can see them, O’Connell.” Ben-o dropped his arm.

  After that, he didn’t try to put his arm around me again and I didn’t play with his hair. We just watched the movie, laughing at all the best parts and imitating the actors’ terrible accents.

  “Jolly good,” we told each other when it ended.

  “Yes, smashing.”

  “Brilliant, what?”

  Ben-o lapsed back into silence after we’d run through our repertoire of undead-Englishman impressions. He started messing with his hair. I regretted saying anything about it, but honestly, what was up with him lately? He never used to care when I teased him. Or not know what to say. Finally, I asked, “Do you want to watch another one?”

  “Nah,” he said.

  “Want to play a game?”

  “Sure.”

  I fished out two controllers from the cabinet under the TV and handed him one. I popped in Stingray Rampage without even asking, since we’re pretty evenly matched in that one.

  He seemed to be more comfortable now that we were facing the screen instead of each other.

  “Who’d you get for homeroom?” he asked.

  I made a face, even though he couldn’t see. “Ross,” I said. “You?”

  “Heinrich.”

  “So jelly,” I said, demolishing an alien. Mr. H is our science teacher and the adviser for Robotics Club. He’s probably my favorite teacher ever. I have a tiny crush on him because he wears short-sleeve plaid shirts and enormous black-rimmed glasses and I like the way his hair sticks up in the back when he’s writing on the board. “Oh, and—Rebecca’s walking with us on Monday. She doesn’t have basketball until next week.”

  “Hey,” Ben-o said, “want to join the chess club this year? It’s on Tuesdays after school.”

  “Can’t,” I said. “Hebrew school.”

  “Oh, right,” he said. “This is your last year, though, right?”

  “Yeah,” I said, thinking, Next year I’m gonna have to come up with a different excuse. I really didn’t get the appeal of competition chess. But if I said that out loud, I would get a full-on strategy lecture from Ben-o.

  “When is your thing?” Ben-o asked, meaning my bat mitzvah.

  “December,” I said. “If I go through with it.”

  “Like you have a choice?”

  “Of course.” When Mum enrolled me in Hebrew school two years ago, I was skeptical—for one thing, the other kids had already been going for three years, so I had a lot of catching up to do—but we all agreed to keep an open mind. “You can’t force someone to have a bat mitzvah,” I told Ben-o. “Like—they have to believe in God and stuff.” At least, I assumed that was true.

  Whether or not I believed in God—that was the main question. I had thought about it all summer, and I still didn’t know the answer. There wasn’t even anyone I could talk to about it. I mean—it wasn’t exactly something you wanted to ask your rabbi. Rabbi Aron is probably the coolest rabbi in the world, but still. My heart did a flip just thinking about that conversation: “Um, Rabbi? I have this friend who maybe doesn’t believe in God … Can I—I mean, she—I mean, he …” See? Scary.

  “Well, I don’t have a choice about my confirmation,” Ben-o said. “Not that I’m against it.”

  “Hmm,” I said, which is what I say when I don’t want to argue. Not being against something isn’t the same as being for something. Having a confirmation or a bat mitzvah is a big deal. A commitment. Not a decision to be taken lightly. Or just because everyone else is doing it.

  “Aren’t you a little bit worried, though?” he asked after a while.

  “About what?”

  “Like, if you don’t have one—that you might go to hell or something.”

  Well, that hadn’t occurred to me before. I took out three of Ben-o’s Stingbats while I considered the question. “I don’t think Jews believe in hell,” I said.

  Ben-o glanced at me, then back at the screen. “Seriously?”

  “I don’t think we have one.”

  “That’s weird.”

  “Why’s it weird? Maybe believing in hell is weird.” For some reason, all this talk about religion was making me feel defensive.

  “No, that’s cool, only—like, how do you know right from wrong?”

  “I just do. So do you.”

  “But maybe that’s because I was taught about heaven and hell and stuff.”

  That made me upset. So Jews not believing in hell meant we couldn’t tell right from wrong? What about the other gajillion people on the planet—the Muslims, Buddhists, Hindus, Sikhs, atheists, et cetera? It wasn’t like they were going around killing each other all the time.

  “No,” I said. “I don’t believe you. You’re a good person, in here.” I thumped my chest, taking a hand off the controller. “You’re not just pretending to be good because you’re afraid of going to hell. You were born good.”

  Ben-o cringed, then swooped in and captured one of my Stingbats.

  “I guess so.”

  But what if he was right? What if, by not having a bat mitzvah, or by being Jewish instead of Christian, or maybe, just maybe, not believing in God—what if I was doomed? Condemned to some nightmarish eternity? Was that a good enough reason to have a bat mitzvah or, in Ben-o’s case, a confirmation? Go through the motions, just in case?

  We played in silence then, and without mercy. I got the feeling Ben-o was a little offended. So was I. That felt weird and uncomfortable. We finished a level, and pretty soon after that, Ben-o said he had to go home.

  “I’m sorry,” I said as he was leaving.

  Ben-o smiled. “Don’t worry about it,” he said, shaking his head. His hair barely moved. “It doesn’t matter.”

  I hoped he was right. But I knew deep down that he wasn’t—that it did matter, in ways I had tried not to think about before. Like—did my having a bat mitzvah mean that Ben-o and I would have less in common? I hadn’t ever thought so before, but I’d also assumed we had the same ideas about right and wrong. Something else was nagging at me, too—nothing to do with Ben-o. It was this: Was I about to become more Jewish, or less Indian? Did making a choice—to do something I wasn’t even sure about—mean having to leave Nanaji behind? Because that was never going to happen. Not ever.

  he intercom buzzed early on Monday morning. It was Sal, the doorman, letting me know Rebecca was on her way up.

  “You’re early,” I said by way of greeting when she came upstairs. I could tell she was nervous about her first-day-of-school outfit, ev
en though she looked the way she always looks—perfect. She dropped her backpack on the floor near the gold-framed mirror in the hall, scowling at her reflection. She stopped, turning to face me.

  “You’re wearing that today?” she asked, surveying my outfit.

  “Uh, yeah,” I said. I had spent the entire weekend putting it together, and frankly, I’d nailed it: white tights, vintage blue-and-green plaid school-uniform skirt, black extra-high-top sneaker boots, and one of Daddy’s sprung-out old concert tees. “What’s wrong with it?”

  “Nothing, just—on the first day? I mean, everyone’s going to be wearing new clothes.”

  “These are new,” I said. Rebecca raised an eyebrow. “New to me, anyway.” Rebecca wouldn’t be caught dead wearing vintage.

  “It looks cool,” she admitted, backpedaling now. “But you could have saved it for tomorrow.”

  “Like I’m gonna wear a Catholic-school skirt to Hebrew school?” I snorted. “Please.”

  Rebecca busied herself futzing with her stick-straight hair, as if she could ever get it to do anything other than what it wanted. She viciously pushed a strand behind her ear. Then she shifted her focus back to her clothes, experimenting with opening and closing the top button of the striped oxford shirt she wore beneath a brand-new green cashmere sweater. She wrinkled her nose like a bunny, turning her head from side to side, trying to catch her own profile. Mum came out of her office then.

  “Don’t you look nice, Rebecca. That green sweater suits you. You know, I have a scarf with that exact color running through it … Would you like to borrow it? Tara, is that what you’re wearing to school?”

  “Can I?” Rebecca breathed. I thought she was going to perish with joy right on the spot. Rebecca definitely has a mom-crush on my mother.

  I sighed and grabbed Rebecca by the arm, pulling her toward the front door. “Come on,” I said. “We’re going to be late. You wouldn’t want that to happen on the first day, would you? Start the year off with a deficit to your perfect attendance record?”

  When we got downstairs, Ben-o was already in the lobby, talking to Sal. Mrs. Donovan, my next-door neighbor, was perched on the bench near the mailboxes, clucking disapprovingly.

  “Young man, where are your big-boy shoes?” she demanded.